Syed Ali Nadeem Rezavi

Looking back over the many twists and turns of my life, I often feel that I have made remarkably few important decisions myself. Most of them seem to have been taken for me by circumstances, by chance encounters, or by people who somehow knew what was best for me long before I did. The earlier chapters of this memoir recounted how I drifted almost accidentally from the sciences into history and how, once there, destiny blessed me with teachers whose names were already becoming legends in the profession. This instalment of the story is about what happened next. It is about the period when a student slowly ceased to be merely a student and began the long apprenticeship of becoming a historian.
As my MA examinations drew to a close in the summer of 1982, I found myself standing at a familiar crossroads. I knew I wanted to continue studying history, but I lacked the courage to approach Professor Irfan Habib and ask whether he would accept me as his research scholar. To us students he was already an institution rather than merely a teacher. His books were discussed across universities, his lectures attracted packed classrooms, and his reputation travelled much farther than the walls of Aligarh Muslim University. Walking into his room simply to ask, “Sir, will you supervise my research?” seemed almost as intimidating as requesting a private audience with one of the Mughal emperors whom he himself had spent a lifetime studying. So, as was my habit in those days, I postponed the difficult conversation.
Fortunately for me, destiny had other plans. Like most students, after finishing our last MA examination, a few of us walked straight to our teachers’ rooms, partly to boast about how well we believed we had written our papers and partly to enquire how best to prepare for the Grand Viva scheduled a few days later. Among us were my classmate and friend Reena Arya and myself. Irfan Sahib listened patiently to our confident assessments of our own brilliance, smiled in the indulgent manner only experienced teachers can manage, and then, just as we were preparing to leave, quietly said, “You two come and meet me after the Viva.” There was nothing unusual in his tone. Neither of us imagined that the course of our lives had already changed.
The Grand Viva was followed, as tradition demanded, by the annual function of the Sultania Historical Society. By the time the proceedings ended it was already around half past eight in the evening. Reena and I walked to Professor Habib’s chamber where he was waiting for us. As we entered, he pointed towards two formidable heaps of books placed on chairs in one corner of the room. They were not books in the ordinary sense. They looked more like bricks that had somehow acquired covers. “These,” he said, “are for you.” We looked at one another with the apprehension of condemned prisoners. Turning towards me, he continued with complete matter of factness. “Nadeem miyan, you will write a paper on Muqarrab Khan, the surgeon. These volumes of Letters Received contain useful material. Here is a list of Persian and English sources that you should also consult.” He then looked towards Reena. “Reena bibi, you will write on Trimetalism under the Mughals.” Before either of us had fully absorbed what had just happened, he produced two membership forms of the Indian History Congress and pushed them across the table. “Fill these up.” Neither of us protested. Neither of us even thought of protesting. By the time we left his room that evening, we had unknowingly become members of the Indian History Congress and participants in its forthcoming annual session at Kurukshetra.
Only later did it dawn upon me that I had never actually asked Professor Habib whether he would supervise my research. Some days afterwards, gathering whatever courage I could muster, I timidly made the request. He looked at me almost with surprise. In truth, the decision had already been taken. Looking back today, I realise that I never formally became Professor Habib’s student. I simply found myself working under him one evening without either of us ever announcing it. Such was his way. There were no formal interviews, no solemn declarations and certainly no speeches about academic careers. A topic was assigned, a membership form signed, a pile of impossible books handed over, and one quietly found oneself inducted into a lifetime of research.
For the next six months my life changed completely. University examinations had taught us how to remember facts. Research taught us how little we actually knew. From June until December I lived among books. European travel accounts, English factory records, Persian chronicles, collections of letters and official documents gradually replaced the prescribed reading lists to which I had become accustomed. Most of these works had fortunately been published. Unfortunately, many remained untranslated. One had first to decipher the Persian before one could even begin asking historical questions. That, however, was only the beginning.
One day, shortly after my research had formally commenced, I entered Professor Habib’s room carrying a notebook filled with carefully prepared questions. Before I could ask a single one, he pointed towards another pile of enormous Persian manuscripts lying on a side table. “Take those.” I obediently carried them away. Only afterwards did I discover what I had undertaken. They were rotograph copies of Persian manuscripts. Black pages carried white lettering interrupted by worm holes, stains and innumerable dots. Many were written in khat-e-shikasta, literally the “broken script”, whose hurried abbreviations often appeared to have been invented specifically to discourage future historians. Each page resembled an elaborate puzzle. Each sentence demanded patience. Each word had first to be deciphered before it could be understood.
Months passed in this fashion. Finally, after what I considered a heroic struggle, I returned to Professor Habib. “Sir,” I announced rather proudly, “there is nothing here on my topic.” He looked up calmly. “Keep them there.” Then he pointed towards another equally intimidating pile. “Take those.” History, I was beginning to discover, had an unusual sense of humour. For several months this curious ritual continued. I would struggle through one set of manuscripts, decipher every difficult line, prepare careful notes and then report back, only to discover that there was scarcely a sentence relevant to my assigned topic. Professor Habib would quietly listen. “Very good.” Then another mountain of manuscripts would appear. My friends had begun discussing chapter outlines and bibliographies. Some had already drafted their first chapters. I, on the other hand, seemed to have become a full time reader of manuscripts that had absolutely nothing to do with my research.
Naturally, doubts crept in. Had I chosen the wrong supervisor? Surely supervisors were expected to direct their students towards useful material. Mine appeared to be leading me with remarkable determination in precisely the opposite direction. After nearly a year and a half of this exercise, I finally entered his room almost in despair. “Sir,” I confessed, “I have gone through all these sources. There is practically nothing on my topic.” Professor Habib smiled. It was one of those smiles which every one of his students eventually came to recognise. “I knew that from the beginning,” he replied. For a few seconds I was speechless. Then, seeing the bewilderment on my face, he explained. “But now you know how to read Persian manuscripts.”
It was one of the most important lessons I have ever received. Research is not the art of collecting information. Research is the discipline of learning how to search for information, how to eliminate false trails, how to recognise silence in the sources and, above all, how to distinguish evidence from assumption. Those months, which I had regarded as wasted, turned out to be the foundation upon which everything I have written since has rested. Every manuscript I have subsequently handled, every Persian document I have translated and every historical argument I have advanced owes something to those seemingly fruitless days. At that time, however, I was convinced that all I had acquired was a permanent weakness in my eyesight.
While this apprenticeship was unfolding, another annual ritual had begun to dominate our lives. The Indian History Congress. For us it was not merely an academic conference. It was almost a pilgrimage. Preparations began months in advance but reached fever pitch during the final week before departure. The Department of History underwent a transformation that would be difficult for younger historians, brought up in the age of laptops and printers, to imagine. Every large room seemed occupied. Manual typewriters clattered away from morning until well past midnight. Typists sat surrounded by piles of handwritten drafts covered with corrections in several inks and several handwritings. Teachers moved from table to table suggesting improvements. Research scholars waited impatiently for their turn. Fresh sheets of paper appeared mysteriously while discarded drafts accumulated in alarming quantities. There was no concept of office hours. The Department simply remained awake. Tea arrived with astonishing regularity. Somebody was always making another correction. Every time Professor Habib remarked, “Only one small change,” everyone within hearing distance knew that another hour had quietly disappeared.
There was, of course, no computer. No email. No photocopiers worth the name. Certainly no Ctrl+Z. If a typist made a mistake on page twenty eight, page twenty eight had to be typed again. The machine had neither sympathy nor memory. Yet no one complained. Indeed, those hectic days remain among my happiest memories of university life. What transformed the labour into a celebration were the people. Every now and then Professor Irfan Habib or Professor Shireen Moosvi would walk in carrying a large paper bag overflowing with roasted peanuts. On another evening M. Athar Ali Sahib would appear with another equally generous supply. Iqtidar Alam Khan Sahib was no different. Tea flowed continuously. Then, late at night, someone would announce that dinner had arrived. Huge containers of steaming qorma, stacks of naan and sometimes kebabs would appear from nowhere. We all ate together. Professors, lecturers, typists, research scholars and students. Nobody maintained any distance. Nobody stood on ceremony. Looking back now, I realise that the Department resembled less an academic institution than an extraordinarily large family trying collectively to meet an impossible deadline.
Once the typing had been completed, another stage began. The typed sheets had first to be converted into stencils and then cyclostyled on manually operated duplicating machines. Khursheed Bhai would be labouring at the cyclostyling machine while Idris Bhai and Noor Ahmad would be making sets out of that material. Those unfamiliar with that ancient technology cannot imagine the labour involved. Someone had to keep turning the crank while fresh sheets emerged one by one, still damp with ink and carrying that unmistakable smell which anyone of my generation instantly associates with scholarly publications. Then came collating. Hundreds of pages had to be assembled in precisely the correct order. Finally they were stitched and bound into volumes. It was usually only a few hours before departure that the last copies emerged. Sleep, if it existed at all, became a luxury.
Among the many traditions associated with those Congresses, one was particularly distinctive. Every year the Centre of Advanced Study in History produced its own independent collection of papers. It was affectionately known as the “rebel volume”. The title was never official. It never needed to be. The volume was cyclostyled, modestly produced and manually assembled. Yet it possessed a reputation that far exceeded its appearance. Delegates at the Indian History Congress would actively seek it out. Copies disappeared almost as soon as they reached the registration desks. One sometimes had the impression that people came looking for the volume before they came looking for the sessions. The contrast with the official departmental publication was rather amusing. That handsome printed volume, produced under the authority of the Head of the Department, often travelled home unopened, becoming an additional burden in already overfilled suitcases. Our modest cyclostyled collection, by contrast, was eagerly carried away. Perhaps the greatest attraction of the “rebel volume” lay elsewhere. It was thoroughly democratic. Every contributor’s name appeared proudly on the cover itself. Distinguished professors and first year research scholars stood side by side in alphabetical equality. For a young student to discover his own name sharing the cover with historians whom he revered was an encouragement beyond measure. And it was edited by Professor Irfan Habib.
When the final bundles had been tied and labelled, the entire group involved collectively exhaled. The next stage of the adventure was about to begin. The journey itself. When everything was finally packed, all members seemed to acquire a new burst of energy. The papers were ready. The bundles had been tied. The cyclostyle ink had finally dried. Now came the journey. For us young research scholars, the Indian History Congress began not at the venue but the moment we boarded the train. One of the remarkable traditions established by Professor Irfan Habib was that there was never one set of arrangements for the teachers and another for the students. We all travelled together. Professor Irfan Habib, Professor M. Athar Ali, Professor Shireen Moosvi, Professor Iqtidar Alam Khan, the younger lecturers, research scholars and students all occupied the same reserved third class compartment. Looking back, I realise how extraordinary this was. Elsewhere it was common for senior professors to travel separately, often in greater comfort. That distinction simply did not exist in our little travelling republic.
The moment everyone boarded, Irfan Sahib assumed complete charge of the compartment. With a reservation chart in one hand and the authority of a veteran railway official, he began allotting berths. “You go there.” “You exchange with him.” “No, she should have the lower berth.” Within minutes every student had found a place. One incident from those journeys still makes me smile. A passenger from the general compartment wandered in looking rather anxious. Watching Irfan Sahib confidently assigning berths and settling passengers, he naturally concluded that this gentleman could only be the Travelling Ticket Examiner. Looking around cautiously, he quietly approached him, folded a few currency notes inside his ticket and, in a conspiratorial whisper, requested, “Sahib, if you could somehow arrange a berth…” For a brief second Irfan Sahib looked completely bewildered. Then the entire compartment burst into laughter. The poor passenger stood frozen, wondering what offence he had committed, until someone finally explained that the gentleman he had mistaken for a railway official happened to be one of the country’s foremost historians. Even years later, whenever the story resurfaced, it never failed to provoke another round of laughter.
The journey itself was unlike anything I have experienced since. Food appeared from every direction. One family had sent parathas. Another had packed pickles. Someone produced kebabs. Another opened a box of sweets. Nothing remained private for very long. Before the train had crossed the first few stations, every tiffin carrier belonged to everybody else. There were no separate groups. Teachers and students sat together, ate together and argued together. Discussions moved effortlessly from Mughal revenue administration to cricket, from Persian manuscripts to politics, from university gossip to the latest historical debates. Someone would invariably begin narrating an amusing anecdote about an earlier session of the Congress. Another would recall some unforgettable question put to a famous historian. Laughter travelled up and down the compartment as frequently as the tea vendors. By the time we reached our destination, we were no longer fellow passengers. We had become a family.
That spirit continued even after the journey ended. On reaching the Congress venue, Professor Habib would ensure that we all stayed together. He never looked for separate accommodation for himself. He shared the same hostel buildings allotted to the rest of us, lived under exactly the same conditions and remained available throughout the Congress. To us, this appeared perfectly natural then. Only much later, after attending conferences elsewhere, did I appreciate how unusual it really was. Eminent scholars generally occupied guest houses or hotels. Irfan Sahib preferred to remain amidst his students.
The Congress itself was a revelation. Until then, the great names of Indian historiography had existed for me only on the covers of books and journal articles. Suddenly they were all there. One passed them in the corridors. One listened to them over breakfast. One watched them argue in the sessions. One occasionally found oneself standing beside them while waiting for tea. For a young student who had only recently completed his MA, it was an overwhelming experience. I still remember the nervousness with which I prepared for my first presentation. No matter how often one rehearsed the paper, one remained convinced that disaster lay only a few minutes away. The real ordeal, however, began after the paper had been read. The discussion. One looked up from the lectern to find oneself facing scholars whose books had shaped the discipline itself. There sat Nurul Hasan. Nearby was J. S. Grewal. One could spot Aniruddha Ray, A. R. Kulkarni and many others whose names had until then belonged almost to another world. To receive a question from one of them was at once terrifying and exhilarating. Today, after presenting papers at the Congress for over four decades, I still experience a measure of nervousness before every presentation. But nothing has ever equalled those first few minutes in Kurukshetra. With experience comes confidence. With youth comes fear. And perhaps fear is not always a bad companion. It reminds us to remain humble before our evidence.
Looking back now, I realise that Professor Irfan Habib was doing something far greater than supervising a group of research scholars. He was creating a scholarly community. He believed that history was not learnt in isolation. It was learnt collectively. It grew through debate, disagreement, criticism and companionship. The train journeys, the shared hostel rooms, the endless conversations over tea, the sleepless nights preparing papers, even the roasted peanuts distributed with such generosity, all formed part of an education no university syllabus could ever prescribe.
Many things have changed over the last four decades. Today papers are written on computers, circulated by email and uploaded with the click of a button. Conferences are organised with remarkable efficiency. Hotels are comfortable. Trains are faster. One can revise an entire paper while travelling on a mobile phone. Yet I sometimes wonder whether, in making everything easier, we have unknowingly lost something precious. We have gained technology. We may have lost fellowship. When I think of those early years, I do not first remember my own paper. I remember the smell of fresh cyclostyle ink. I remember the clatter of manual typewriters through the night. I remember the mountains of roasted peanuts that somehow disappeared almost as quickly as they arrived. I remember the laughter in a crowded railway compartment after an unsuspecting passenger tried to bribe Professor Irfan Habib for a berth. Above all, I remember a teacher who never behaved like one of India’s greatest historians. He travelled with us, stayed with us, ate with us, argued with us and quietly taught us, by example rather than instruction, what it meant to belong to a community of scholars. Fate may have brought me to history. Professor Irfan Habib taught me how to live it.





